My life [broken]

I don't know why I have always liked broken things like run down buildings and try to fix broken stuff (sometimes) I guess I felt broken and abandon most of my life and thought that I could make the world a better place by eliminating myself. I sometimes would feel an emptiness as I walked into an abandon building and occasionally I would feel a tear trying to leave my eye and felt like I was the building. I had anger issues because of stress but no my mom just wanted to just say that I'm insane or crazy. To get hit by your mom hold in the anger and let it out later "yeah I'm insane {sarcasm}"  so I held it in longer like years longer and one day sparks flew and started a fire inside me that literally felt like burning inside my chest and stomach. I would get pissed off so fast that you say the wrong thing and we are fighting but then again I'm just insane so everyone thought but thay did not care to see that I had issues and would rather send me home or let me own the ISS room. But sometimes I was afraid to get help because I did not want to lose my parents thay already fought and divorced when I was young and to never see them again. Just imagain watching your parents fight and you try to stop them but you are just an obstacle that gets in their way shit I played with fire and got burned meny times. But for get all that I look at my life now and relies that because I did not kill myself I actually have stopped other people from killing themselves by showing them I care. I am a dark Pokemon but I have a heart and if you are good to me and i trust you you get to experience what a true friend is. If your a heartless asshole than you will see my fire wall and get burned by it... A good example is there is a teacher that asked me to get her laptop from her car and that meant I had to walk all the way to the other side of the school but hay the teacher is nice so I don't mind. Then there was this two faced teacher who would be nice when other adults were around but when thay left it was bitch mode on I threw an eraser at her and flipped her off in her face  infront of administration team. So yeah that's only a spoon full of my life... If you have questions leave me a nice comment if you have something negative to say than you will get a negative response from me and I will be entertained by your foolishness because your not going to easily offend me I'm over that